Indeed, your physical appearance is beautiful, as others also express, including your family. And relatively, your mentality, your cognitive functionality is also, relatively beautiful.
With concern regarding your biololgical mother Stephanie Jean Rice's behaviors (enabled and supported by many, including yourself, and to be fair, she is your mother despite the destructive mentality), my experiences of receiving stigmatized treatment involvement gaslighting, pathological lying, threatening, using profanities, expressing death wishes, death threats, bait-and-switch, denial, especially plausible deniability, obstructing justice (especially avoiding subpoenas, or even perhaps your mother's effort to hide or disrupt your even awareness that subpoenas existed), and so many other circumstances that have occurred throughout the last 3 years since you had abruptly submitted to pressure and abuse bestowed upon you from your mother and your aunts, those things are not as beautiful, especially per my having assisted you with your CCAC educational studies including Math and Java programming, perhaps moderate friendly generosity, sharing gifts and experiences together including with each others' families (only my mother has been in Pennsylvania, and with her own despairing struggles that she is substantially overcoming nowadays with great appreciation and admiration from myself), and many other characteristics involving you and I, and even despite your having written 60+ page journal and letter expressing your concerns in a way that you felt your mother, aunts, family and friends wouldn't find out (oppositely Diary of Anne Frank comes to mind).
Trent Reznor, essentially Nine Inch Nails, the entire history of his published albums since 1989 essentially describe the situation between yourself and myself as also disrupted and manipulated most notably by your biological mother Stephanie Jean Rice and others.
Pretty Hate Machine released in 1989
Broken released in 1992
Fixed released in 1992
The Downward Spiral released in 1994
Further Down the Spiral released in 1995
The Fragile released in 1999
Things Falling Apart released in 2000
And All That Could Have Been released in 2002
With Teeth released in 2005
Year Zero released in 2007
Ghosts I-IV released in 2008
The Slip released in 2008
Hesitation Marks released in 2013
Not the Actual Events released in 2016
All of the songs of those albums too, many of them essentially describe practically exactly the circumstance between yourself Sapphire Welka, and myself Jason Khanlar.
June 9th, 2014 I received text messages from Sapphire Welka:
"Basically, I think we should still be friends because I think some day, we will be able to prove your innocence."
"Perhaps I should put more effort into proving your innocence."
"Blah. I suppose I do not matter. I hope I can get my own place next year"
"My family matters, but I do not. Reality does not matter. All that matters is the opinion of my family."
"My opinion does not matter :("
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And though everything that occurred and was said before and everything after, seems to make sense logically, as unfortunately toxic and destructive as it has been, especially undermining any and all credibility of my innocence (false police reports were filed, civil cases to prove evidence-based logic and reason were lost, justice obstructed including based solely on attendance including subpoena for effort to prove that I am not lying, teasing, joking, fraudulent, dishonest, etc.), as well as your showing any concern of my innocence pressured by the mentally abusive power of others that you submit to, I am glad that I had appreciated Trent Reznor's music amongst many other musicians and intelligences in nonmusic forms as I was a child, that I still appreciate to this day.
By all means, I shall never gaslight you, lie to you, threaten you, mentally abuse you, bait-and-switch brainwash you, blackmail you, backstab you, nor others such as your biological mother Stephanie Jean Rice who played a role in contributing to nature of circumstances, but why allow for your biological mother Stephanie Jean Rice to threaten you, lie to you, gaslight you, blackmail you, etc.?
I remember during my many visits to your home, you had music albums by Marilyn Manson, and you also show that you like Marilyn Manson. There is a lot of meaning and logic in Nine Inch Nails and Marilyn Manson's music.
I definitely do not enjoy hypocrisy or nature of showcasing hypocritical behavior, especially persons whom showcase extremely fraudulent behavior and claiming fraud of persons they don't like (submitting to pressure from your mother to act stupider than you really are as part of process to get Social Security Administration Supplemental Security Income is a dishonor and disgrace, even more so if you weren't pressured, and especially if your mother tries to deny it if you try to prove it, which she certainly would do as I have come to understand), and I recognize and learn to point it out immediately nowadays when I see it, and somewhat recognize more when to avoid emotionally and especially financially investing in persons, especially those that are less skilled at hiding their toxic, destructive willingnesses and manipulativenesses (We see these patterns even throughout powerful, wealthiest of persons involved in United States as well, including involving toxic presidential leaderships, toxic politics, toxic media conglomerates, etc. -- when we didn't see it as clearly, "we knew").
Nonetheless, I remember during elementary school hearing from my school peers "I'm rubber. You're glue. Everything you say bounces off me and sticks to you." and I suspect that is perhaps your nature of nonresponsiveness, nonattentiveness, ignorance is bliss, albeit pressured, threatened, forced, coerced, intimidated and indoctrinated nature, and relatively effective considering you had repeatedly stated to me that you are gullible (exploitable) and that you have been gullible your entire life, and perhaps indicative of fragile insecurity as a lifestyle, (and all those other things conceptually expressed in Trent Reznor's lyrics) yet somehow hypocrisy sustains, where even fans of musicians, or their messages, somehow do not comprehend, or relate or understand. And it is difficult as I try to understand the nature of understanding of others. I can perhaps only 'protect' (John Mcclure's exhibited predatory and fairly manipulative protectionism rings loudly and clearly) it seems Trent Reznor's lyrics perhaps entertain a sense of peace of mind amidst a United States development of mental chaos. It's hard to tell from the screenshot above how you feel. It doesn't reveal the mental cognitive aspects. But the observation of patterns (and especially those persons who respond to me, not only including historically Veronia Cajka, but others I have met even in recent days, weeks, months) suggest that 'deep down inside' you are hurt, painfully frustrated, but it's your life, your responsibility, your future.
Be strong. Respect yourself. (If you aren't and don't already -- at the very least, I hope that my experiences perhaps have helped to shine a light on areas that you can improve upon for yourself, even if you aren't willing to, substantially disrupted and interfered from doing so, or even don't know how to explain it.)
Sincerely,
Jason Khanlar
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