Dear Sapphire Welka,

From since I met you in 2012 until June 2014, it was wonderful to communicate (and interact) with you on an almost daily basis. It was wonderful to be friendly towards each other. Unfortunately, since June 2014, you had abruptly ceased communications, interactions and all things pertaining to my existence, and as you had mentioned to me, as directly related to your being pressured and threatened to avoid, neglect and reject me for all circumstances. The climate had changed.

Nonetheless, I would like to thank you, despite that it is not only a result of my experiences with you, but in which you have played a substantially significant, influential and important role for me to realize the severity of the culture of bullying. Again, as I have stated on various occasions and I continue to reflect upon: You have practically never (from September 2012 up until approximately April of 2014, and crucially as of June 2014):

• lied to me
• threatened me
• harassed me
• intimidated me
• coerced me
• gaslighted me
• violated me
• forced me
• exhibited violence towards me
• used profanities or derogatory statements to me
• discredited me
• disrespected me
• denounced me
• undermined my dignity and integrity and cognitive and sociological well being
• neglected me
• rejected me
• conditioned me
• predatorily (as opposed to respectfully) sexualized friends of mine, or past friends of mine 

but as lead by your biological mother Stephanie Jean Rice, and practically immediately and increasingly enabled and supported by many others including notably Stephen Sevananda Rice, Candrika Rice, Raymond Patrick Allen, John Mcclure, Matt Herceg, but certainly not limited to, certainly I have experienced many of those behaviorisms from each of those persons, including that which sustains a defamatory representation of myself, including within the bubble or circle of relations with which you are sustainably punished and threatened from having any affiliation, contact or communicate with me, including that which you had informed me that if you ever were to live with me, that your mother would kick you out and never speak to you again.

It is a rather unfortunate circumstance, and especially it is relative to your being on the autistic spectrum. Too, it is unfortunate that one of the last things that you had stated to me was your asserting repeatedly that you are stupid.

I am confident that you have a soul. (In the last couple months, upon being bullied by one person in which that person's friends and peers jumped in to contribute to additional disrespectful, rude and dishonest claims about me, but to be defended by one person, only laterly for that person to convey to me that they did not know who I was, or that I was not their friend, or even their explicit statement suggesting that they had no soul and didn't care)

I am confident that you have dignity.

I am confident that you have integrity.

I am confident that you are able to respect yourself and to stand up for and defend yourself, and to not succumb to ridicule, hatred, bullying or other compromising and corrupted exploitations.

But too, I am confident of those things about myself as well, and for that I thank you.

I thank you for helping me to strengthen my realization that I, Jason Khanlar, matter. That my opinions matter. That my friends matter. That my relations matter. That my effort to strive to succeed and accomplish and achieve wonderful things matters. That my progress and development and learning new and practicing existing skills and incorporating those skills into my life experiences matters. That with confidence, I can realize my potential and respectfully sustain and preserve it.

I wish that you were so kind to respect yourself and to realize such things, and not only of me, but of any and all persons that you affiliate and interact with.

I am confident that the domestically abusive environment which you conditionally sustain yourself in will inevitably lead to your own leadership of employing relevant abusive skills to impact upon others through their own unfortunate and discomforting, perhaps even debilitating (for those who rely and depend upon you as a leader to look up to and admire) experiences.

I want to say nice things about you, as I had previously done before you had disappeared from my life as forced upon you by your biological mother, to which you complacenctly complied, despite my repeated cries and pleas for you to realize the abuses and steps you could take to avoid them.

I would like to think that you are not a corrupted human, and that you too, can excel at respecting yourself, doing well in school, passing your classes, getting a respectful job, pursuing a responsible and accountable career, independently and strengthenedly representing yourself both morally and ethically as a responsible and accountable human being with value, purpose and worth, including self-worth, to know that you and others speaking on your behalf, about you, both publicly and privately, are boosting your reputation as a wonderful and decent human being.

I miss experiencing those qualities, even if I was delusional, as your biological mother had so inaccurately and disrespectfully asserted to me, amongst various other nasty claims both to me as well as to yourself, in which, if you remember, I had effortfully discussed those things with you in detail, to which you had agreed with me, despite not having taken steps or actions to do anything about them.

Too, I reflect upon your peers and friends as perhaps considering the same, at least for those who do not integrate threats, profanities, etc (see list above) into the list of behaviors that they resort to into their and others' lifestyle experiences.

Please respect yourself dear Sapphire Welka.

Maybe one day you may realize and reflect upon the nature of such things such that you could perhaps thank me and others for helping you to realize how to escape the domestic and systemically patternistic abuse.

Until then, bee well.


Sincerely,

Your friend,
Jason Khanlar